Claire's Kindergarten Registration...
So - yesterday was the day that we registered Claire for kindergarten. Yes - I wept. My eyelids seem to be retaining about three pounds extra fluid today and no doubt will burst again at any moment. Such a suck I am. And the actual event is still eight months away! It's hard to be to appreciate that I am NOT the first mom to go through this - and that these countless others have actually made it through. I guess in all fairness I seem to be processing her leaving highschool and moving away at the same moment as her beginning kindergarten and in reality I will probably be blessed with a few moments in between! It just seems like the time is going so fast and as I walked her up to the school, with her mess of curls in a ponytail on each side of her head and beaming in excitement, looking up to me for assurance and direction, it just struck me how scared I am of her drifting away - wondering how much longer I have until she stops showering me with hugs and kisses, when the day will come she no longer thoughtlessly reaches up for my hand as we walk down the street....
It's hard not to be selfish with our kids - to want to keep them little and dependent, try to hold on to the time where we are the center of their whole world and get to share a part of every detail of who they are, to remember that God has designed them with a bigger purpose that to remain my own little private blessings to enjoy...
But I am also looking forward to enjoying her as the woman she is going to become - watching with pride as she walks across the stage to get her diploma, to see her as a beautiful bride, and to watch her hold her own precious baby in her arms for the first time as her heart explodes to spaces she never knew she had.
3 comments:
Oh Ralna....I cried too as I read your blog today. It doesn't seem very long ago since I sent YOU off to Kindergarten, watched you get your high school and two secondary education diplomas, get married, and become a mother to two beautiful children! How is it possible that it all happened in so short a time? And now you at the point where you send your princess off to Kindergarten. Enjoy your family, Ralna, and every day thank God for the huge blessing that they are, because the time comes far too quickly, and they are gone to make lives of their own. I'm still thanking God for you. Love ya.
you wept??!! my goodness I can hardly type through these tears! where has time gone???
OK, so it's a cry fest. The time just goes way too fast. I wish I could slow down these days... I'm totally not ready to let them go... :( Maybe I just won't let them. Do you think that'll work?
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